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PROFILE 
Life's been challenging & love's unpredictable.
But I know, everything happens for a reason.
& That, every ending's a new beginning.
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Thursday, April 30, 2009 @ 11:26 AM
7TH! Hello! I didn't attend school today. Omg, I only attend 1 out of 4 classes this week. I'm still not fully recovered yet, what to do. But, I'm doing all fine now. Problems-free for the time being (: I'm just a little worried though for Mum. She's also recovering slowly. Nevertheless, everything's in place now. I've been smiling, laughing. and school yesterday went fine. Went for the IGs fair and Vanessa helped me signed up for netball. Thanks Van (: I met Johan after the fair and oh boy was I happy to meet him. We then made our way to cwp and all the way, we were both catching up on how our days went. We then rested at Macd and enjoyed Coke. By 6, I headed home and he headed to work as he was doing closing. And I'm missing him since then :/ However, on a lighter note, our 2nd monthsary and his birthday falls on the same day on next Thursday! I have to start planning and I'm sexcited for dinner on Saturday! :D I love you Johan! Despite everything that's gone down, despite having to go through with me in my darkest scary times, you're still by my side, not letting me go. And you cried, saying that your feelings have not change, and they're not gonna change. I'm lucky to have you. Very baby. Friday, April 24, 2009 @ 12:27 PM
Angry plus sad Sometimes I want to scream my lungs out loud. Sometimes I want to cry till there's more tears left inside my eyes. Why? Why's all this happening when I never wanted at all for this to happen? I'm troubling others when I really don't have the intention to. I don't want to worry my loved ones, my friends and Johan. I know I'm not my usual self these few days. I know something's wrong with me and I can't figure out this alone. I'm struggling inside out. I don't know. Maybe, I'm not strong inside neither I'm strong on the outside. How? Are there any solutions to all of these. There's tons of questions inside my head. But where do I start? Where're the answers? I'm not smiling, and there's no happy thoughts to think about. I'm tired. People around never fail to advise me and not be too stressed out with all the problems. I appreciate their good intentions and I know they're helping me. I know I have to smile again and not let anyone else get me distracted from the things that I have to do. I know I can do this. Hopefully, after this, everything's going to be fine. Thursday, April 23, 2009 @ 12:57 AM
HANGING All kinds of feelings are bottling up inside me. It's filling up, layer by layer. It's only the third day, and it's really affecting me. Why put me in this kind of situation? Why put my friends in this kind of situation? Did we do anything wrong? Did we? We were trying our very best to contribute. That, I have to give credits. But, how am I suppose to give credit to you? I just don't get it. From the start, you stereotyped us already. You were only judging us by the cover. You were not welcoming when we struck a conversation with you and when we introduced ourselves to you. For the past two days, we've laid a red carpet for you. And you just have to bloody walk. But why are you still acting cold towards us? You haven't even get to know us, and you've already distant from us. Why? I'm always in deep thoughts since you've been in my life. Are we really leaving a bad impression on you? Are we so bad in your eyes? I don't get it. You're leaving me and my friends in a situation till to a point where, we don't know what else we can do to reach out for you. What do you exactly want from us? You're affecting me deeply, this is the bloody truth. And I can't bloody force you to be with us. It's all up to you. Cause at the end of the day, it's whether you want to learn or not. The thing that I'm most taken aback was, why were you not enthu and smiling and be open to ideas during discussion. But when it comes to presentation, you are someone else. Someone whom we're most likely gonna dislike. So please, all I ask is, stop this bullshit. If you want to be in a team, then buck up, and act as though you're a team member. If you don't want to do anything about it, then fcuk off from my life. Seriously. I'm deeply affected. Not only by you, but, with outside matters as well. Borderline, don't judge the book by its cover. Assumptions are really bad. And in my personal belief, karma is always watching us. To the rest of classmates, you guys are still apples in my eyes. Tuesday, April 21, 2009 @ 6:33 PM
Never say never Hello. Time flies, and 2 days of school has just past by. And I say I have a dash of fun :D I like my 2 fcs so far, they are helpful and hilariously funny. My teammates on Monday is different from today's. I was separated from Kumar and Alson. But nevertheless, Vanessa managed to be in my team. Haha :D Together with Andy, Hidayat and Amy. I can say that I was enthu about doing the module cause it's more to language and communication. However, I did not know that the problem statement was going to be confusing that we were out of point in the first place. But fortunately for us, there was Mr K to help us out. And we realised that the main key thing was the audience, who are the parents. Despite all the blurness, and confusions, we managed to come up with the slides, the content and everything. We presented our best and chiong our way through. Hah. But when everything was done with, Mr K pointed about our introduction. I felt kinda sucky for a moment. Cause I came to realise that teamwork is important if we want to achieve good grades. And if one party does not wish to participate actively, i don't know what the fcuk to say. For now, I can just be patient with that party. But it happens on and on, I'll use my finger. HAHA. After school, I was supposed to have lunch with Vanessa. I was craving for mee soto already. Then she went for smoke, then I don't know where she go after that. I called her, but couldn't get through. Thus, I managed to met up with Fifi after so much of confusing directions. Hah. I ate nasi lemak with her and managed to meet up with my course teammates as well :D And to Sheila, I really love your hot red pink hair. I was admiring the whole time actually cause it was red(!). So, I felt envy of her hair! Haha :P Don't cry but smile, cause you look more pretty! I wore same green eyeliner as her just now. I was by her side, and she had my shoulder to lean on. We did not manage to say our goodbyes cause I was in the toilet. But we texted :D Confirm tonight, she don't know what to wear and ask me thru MSN if we both online. Hah. By 5, I headed home. Fifi met up with other friends, whereas, I walked home happily with Shiva, Prasad, Haikal and Aaron. They teased me on watching 17 again. But I was laughing along with them also. But seriously, 17 again was really nice. I thought it was gonna be like HSM, cause there's still basketball and cheerleaders what not. But I assumed wrongly. Hah. It was about friendship, relationship, family, standing up for your own rights and not having sex before you get married or when you're not financially stable yet. And obviously, the huge part is because there's Zac Efron inside. He wore his leather jack with his gold rim aviators. Impressively hot *MELTS* But the best huge part is, there was Johan beside me keeping me warm when watching it. He saw me cry when Zac Efron was pouring his heart out for his wife. When the show ended, I'm glad that he loved it cause I was the one who persuaded him to watch and he said yes yes yes. Thanks baby. We walked home from Woodlands to Sembawang, enjoying the breeze and the night sky which had literally stars everywhere :D  Never say never by The Fray is stuck in my head. I miss Johan and I can't wait to see him for dinner later. Give him ultra tight hug! :D Sunday, April 19, 2009 @ 10:44 AM
Rocketstar!  My saturday was awesome (: Well, minus off the hot humid weather. 30C I tell you, till I had to buy 12 packets of tissue from Cold Storage, though it's only 95cents -.= Went out of the house by 11. Met up with Johan at Ang Mo Kio mrt :D We mrted down to Dhoby Ghaut. While waiting for his bandmates to arrive, we walked around Park Mall and admired the furnitures down there. Damn they are nice, the vintage clocks and their beds. Haha. Johan pointed out this sofa which could be our sex couch. Siao, i know. Hah. And he loved the silver kitchenwares so much. Only silver he said. Afraid that his bandmates already arrived at the jamming studio, we made our way there soon after. We bumped into Zan along the way, the drummer. He wanted to withdraw money, thus, we were the early ones there. Johan brought along his french toasts. They were nice, so I finished them. By 1, one by one came. But, I had to make my way back to Park Mall again to collect my online tee for Johan. So imagine, I made my way to and fro, I was perspiring like roasted pig. Hah. Upon receiving it, I was only impressed with the robot, of course. But when Johan saw it, he said he loved it :D After their jamming was done, we met up with Lydia and bussed down to Artshouse. Met up with Titi and Fizah after that. By 3 or so, they were up to perform. Like finally :D Johan managed to sing 5 songs. I was all smiles inside. And I had no idea at all that he had written a song for me. When he came to the final song, it was weird seeing him to go to the side of the stage and flashed out his black book. Then, I was trying to figure out what song he was gonna sing cause I thought he already performed all. I knew something was up to his sleeves. And then he said, it's a love song dedicated to his special someone. And then I covered my face. And I didn't know he was pointing towards me. I was ultra touched till tears were brimming in my eyes. I video-ed the song, and half-way, it stopped cause memory full. HAHA. But still, the song is still playing in my head. I was speechless. Clueless on what to say or react. When he was done, he deserved a kiss^^ Lydia claimed he looked like a teacher when he was holding his book and singing simultaneously. Haha. After his performance, we had our lunch at BK eating house. Tiny bees were distracting us from our food. But still, we enjoyed with Johan, Oje and Ahmad's annoying irritating jokes. Haha. Afterwhich, we went back to Artshouse to watch Telecast. The frontman was in pyjamas performing. How cute. He was really entertaining the audience. After all that, we all headed to Marina Square with all of them. Johan and I played the alphabet game along the way. He won at last. God damn it. Haha. Upon reaching marina square, we were in need of Aircon. We went inside and it was heaven. We settled on Gloria Jeans. I bought a large Cookies 'n Cream and enjoyed it with Johan. By 9, we mrted home :D Baby, how can I ever leave you after yesterday. Infact, I'm loving you more and more afraid to get hurt or to lose you.      EDITED\ After one week of not in store, I was finally working today from 11 till 5. I was on floor with Farhan, Ahmad, Johan, Wei Chin, Zariq Nadia and two new partners. Haha. For the first time, Wei Chin commented on my eyes and teased me like mad about calling out drinks. Zariq and Nadia commented on my hair cause already long. K, I better promise myself to trim the long ends and do highlights next month. Talking about next month, I'm meeting Shida Bby. We didn't get to meet after our Velocity date. Haha. I'm missing her like fcukfcukfcuk. I know she's reading this :D I love you Bestgirlfr! School's tomorrow. Believe it, tomorrow! Back to normal routine, waking up early and walking to school. It's just that it's different cause Shida's not by side, not under the block waiting for me, walking to school sharing stories and what not. Haiz. But still, I'm looking forward and pray hard, my 16weeks will be a fruitful one! :D And Zac Efron, I'm eyeing on you tomorrow. I'll go cair :PSaturday, April 18, 2009 @ 12:16 AM
Jam & Hop My eyes are heavy. My legs are aching. Jam & Hop was a happening event. I was dancing my night away with my girlfs from my course. And this morning, we were reported to our own individual classes. Mine consists of many girls. There were only 4guys. And I made friends with LC, Kumar and Amanda. Haha. And these are the people whom I'm gonna get close to for 16weeks. Our orientation finally ended at 1oPM. Good things have to always come to an end. We exchanged emails and contacts for the very last time. And parted. Remembering the days we had together, it was really a rollercoaster ride. I don't regret joining RP. I know I'll adapt to my new environment, to my new friends, to my facilatators and to the new timetable. School will always finish by 5PM. And I will surely can't wait for school to end on the first day of school, cause I have a movie date with Johan after that. 17 again! :DD Tomorrow he's performing at Artshouse. Yay, you go loverboy! (L) Friday, April 17, 2009 @ 12:02 AM
Kinder Bueno     I brought my camera to school today :D First thing in the morning, already camwhored with my other group mates. And yes sadly, we're all separated far far from each other. I'm in E36M. What fcuk. Hah. I'm going to have to start again, making friends, and getting to know new ones. It's prolly gonna be a good thing or a bad thing. Haiya. We have to report for tomorrow's last orientation at 8.30AM. We're gonna be in the school for almost 12hours. There will be Jam & Hop, cheering etc etc. Today was feeling fatigue, but hopefully tomorrow, I'll breeze my way through. School's starting soon, in 3 days time freshmen :D Johan, thanks for the Kinder Bueno, thanks for making me laugh. You're cute when you're shy and you do the gesture. And I know, you're serious about us :D Wednesday, April 15, 2009 @ 7:43 PM
Orientation Hello (: Just came back from school's orientation. It ended at 5 today. It's gonna be the same for tomorrow. A long day. Well today, there was unfamiliar faces seen in my course. There was way more people in other schools. The atmosphere was overwhelming. We had the whole day playing games and completing the tasks given. It was fun (: But I did not manage to have lunch cause the queue was super long and thus, I had to bare with my hunger till it was over. I had my lunch with Fifi and Sukashi at Banquet. Oh Fifi, cheer up aight. Be strong. Sooner or later, you'll get used to it. It's not so bad, you still look pretty :D Tomorrow's orientation will be mascot making and photo blog. Looking forward for it. And the tee-shirt they handed out was nice. And yeah, will be getting our Republic Ez-link cards as well. Wee! Aight, am getting my bath now. Gonna meet up with Johan later to have ice-cream (L)   
Tuesday, April 14, 2009 @ 7:52 PM
Stomachache  Half of my day today was certainly not my day. I had to do opening today. Johan woke me up by 5. And I had my bath everything. And then, my stomach was really in excruciating pain. I had to buang air besar a couple of times, and it was really abnormal, the way it was discharged. Haha. Aight, pardon me. But seriously, I was in no form to walk or even move. I was totally in lazy mode to go to store and work my ass off for eight hours. I had Isa to allow me to start by 8. But still, the pain was there. And I had to ask Johan to help me cover my shift. And thus, he had to skip school because of me :/ Thanks baby. You were of great help. And I had my sleep again, with his sweater pressed down to my stomach. And I woke up by 11, and I was feeling feverish. I had no appetite to eat, nor drink. Till 5, I was remote to the couch. And Johan wanted to meet me. I made for him 2 egg sandwichs :D And he bought for my chicken porridge. He ate my sandwichs with glee. And he fed me the porridge. I did not finish it up and almost the whole time, my eyes were half-closed and my head on his shoulder. And then, he said he had a surprise for me. I had no idea what he was up to. When I opened my eyes, he handed me this paper bag, and inside, was the leather jacket I was aiming for. And a red note. I was so touched and I was speechless. All I could say, was a big thank you. He made my day. Thanks for making me feel so much beter. I love you :D I wish I could be with you now doing the recording. Hope you're having fun and there's always a next time (: And don't worry, your surprise will come this Saturday^^ Tomorrow's the first day of orientation. Hope I'll be well enough to participate in the programmes. My course orientation was held on Monday. The first newfound friend I made was Mel. Haha. We had fun playing games the seniors organised for us. The facilators seemed outgoing. And when they said, they're looking for sport journalists for the AYG games, I was interested. I hope I'll do well for the Qualifying test when school opens :D I miss girlfriends. Sunday, April 12, 2009 @ 11:39 AM
With all my love, Hello, yesterday's shift was quite hectic. Since it was a Saturday, I had to bare with the never ending queue of customers orderig from both sides. I was in charge of the frappe station. But on the brighter side, it made time past by so fast without me realising, that I'm gonna hangout with Johan soon. He came with his jeans, which I claimed to be my favourite, all wet. He rode in the rain all for me. Aww. As planned, we had our dinner at BK and went to Far East to show the leather jack that I wanted. But he showed me another that he liked, which I was liking as well (: Afterwhich, we mrted down to Marina Bay, hopped on the shuttle bus to Marina Barrage. It kinda sucked cause my camera died on me. Clumsy on my side, cause I've forgotten to charge the batt. Argh. But still, we had fun playing Uno cards under the night sky. I won 2 out of 3 games. Muahaha. Johan said I was competitive. Haha. Yeah, I'm competitive girl by nature, even with the boyfriend :P By 8.45, we left for home. He bought for me fries along the way home. Thanks baby, thanks for the day :D For Johan, when I first got to know you, and be friends with you, we could get along well, really well. You with your mischievous acts, me getting bullied and teased at everytime. I'm always laughing when I'm around you. You can brighten up anyone's day without fail. And the thought of falling for you and loving you never came across my mind. But eventually, you make room for my heart. When I saw the side of you that noone else had seen, I fell for you. And I thought, the feelings were just playing tricks on me. I guessed I was wrong and I could not help thinking, about you.On our first date, I was more than happy to spend my day with you, and it was worth it. I went home smiling and since then, everything changed for us, for the better. Till today, I have no regrets or whatsoever. Never. You're in my head everytime. I missing you when you're not here with me. I can't resist looking at you when you're with me. Holding your hands gives me warmth. You give me a reason to smile, to laugh and to look forward for our days to come. I love you honey, whole-heartedly.  Friday, April 10, 2009 @ 1:54 AM
Surprise  I've got a surprise for Johan on next Tuesday (: Hope he loves it. So today, I've spent on make-up, bangles and hippie bag. Aiyaya. Am I already broke? I've spent like nobody's business. Nehmind, it's for school whatt. And yeah, I guess I spent on basic tops next month. I need to get a bag for my lappie (: And yeah, leather jacket costs 40bucks. Wait for next month also I guess. Haha. I'm missing Johan............. Thursday, April 9, 2009 @ 2:54 PM
Sentosa!      Being with the store at Sentosa, was incredibly fun yesterday. We were all expected to meet at 9 at Pahlawan. But of course, we were all not on time. Haha. Zariq's car got lost. And I was in Farhan's car, we got lost at Sentosa. And so, by 11, we all gathered. We played 'monkey', we ate our lunch. The mee hoon and fried chickens were yum yum. We then started playing our scavenger hunt. By 2.30, we gathered back again and Naz's group won. Haha. We then played captain's ball. The scorching heat were burning our feets. But, we had a whale of our time. Johan piggy-backed me into the sea. Haha. Dee and Johan did synchronising swimming. So cute :D By, 6, we all showered and packed up. We headed down to Bendemeer Road for dinner and home sweet home! I had fun :D I'm doing closing today. And I'm gonna get my leather jacket today! I'm craving for ice cream suddenly. Wednesday, April 8, 2009 @ 1:25 AM
Go botanic baby!        Alright, so today was pay day. I paid my handphone bill, bought Johan his monthsary gift, pay for taxi fare, shopped at Cotton On, bought a cake for Johan and I'm left with only 200 bucks. Haha. So fast, money fly. But still, it's all worth it. For the boyfriend :D So yeah, today went to the Airport. Had a light lunch at Mc Cafe and by 7.30, I cabbed down to town to meet Johan. And still, I was earlier than him. Dont know what took him so long to walk from the MRT to Taka. Haha. We then bussed down to Tanglin. He bought Cokes from 7eleven and we headed down to Botanic Garden. It was so really dark, when it's only 9. We walked one big round, and in the end, we chose a place which is still near to the entrance. We literally walked such a distance. We laid down our mats and Johan started unpacking what he brought or should I say cooked and baked specially for me. He brought a candle, he lighted it up. He cooked spaghetti and baked brownies. Sedap I tell you :D I lighted up my slice of cake for him. It was so chocolatey. I made the right choice. I handed him his gift, he handed his gift to me. Thank you baby! I love it! And by 11, we bussed home! I love love love you! And what you wrote for me, touched my heart :D And Fifi bought herself a new handphone. How can I not be jealous. Summore, its red. Walaueh. And yeah, Fifi, I used your mat. Heh heh... Tuesday, April 7, 2009 @ 2:01 PM
First monthsary  To Johan Bin Hasan, Happy First Monthsary ♥ I know you're excited, I lagi excited. Thanks for tolerating my nonsense for this past one month. Thanks for all the treats that you have showered on me. Thanks for all the public rides home. Thanks for wanting to meet my family. Thanks for waiting for me when I was still on shift. Thanks for all the late night calls. Thanks for being there for me when I needed a crying shoulder. Thanks for singing to me to sleep every single night. Thanks for making me feel loved and special. Thanks for all the hugs and kisses. Thanks for everything baby. I love you and I know, you love me juga :D MUACKS! We're going picnic at Botanic Garden today. Only after, I've sent my Aunty Norlia to the airport. I've bought something for baby just now from Esprit. Let's pray that he's gonna love it. I'm craving for Pizza hut, badly. And oh yah, instead of going PulauUbin tomorrow, we're just heading to Sentosa O_o Monday, April 6, 2009 @ 1:20 PM
Coming soon  Hola! Johan performed great last Saturday. I'm a proud girlfriend :D He didn't performed 'Crash'. Hence, I really hope that he'll get to for his next gig on the 18th. To Fifi & Zee, thanks for your presence babies! Greatly appreciated yaw :D And to Shida, better come for the 18th, if not, I'll kill youuu! So yesterday, I had to work my ass off at Liat Towers. Non-stop slamming but on a brighter note, time was moving rather fast. By 6.30, went back to store and Johan was already done with his shift. I was really fcuking famished, thus, we headed down to BK and had our dinner. Topsy turvy tasted better than Turkey bacon. They should have it permanently. After having our dinner, we watched Radit & Jani together on my lappie. Haha. Till 10, we were in there and my lappie died on us when the movie finished. Perfect timing. But, it was nice. Johan liked it :D He was on the phone with me just now, and he said, I miss you bodoh^^ Aight, I'm making my way to Republic later to send some forms. Aiyayayaya. Tomorrow, please come fast! Friday, April 3, 2009 @ 11:30 PM
Yay tomorrow! Johan's performing tomorrow(!) Thursday, April 2, 2009 @ 12:15 AM
April Fools Mum called me up and said that my hp bill was close to 200 bucks(!) And I was like, reaaaalllyyyyyyy?! Ok now, I have to pay 150 bucks and that's like, 1/3 of my pay. I have things to buy for school, for boyfriend, etc etc. Walaueh. Why shit always happen. Well, hopefully I will manage to own the things I've been aiming to buy.
See, many. Ayoyo. Well, at the moment, I have to settle on the store's notice boards with Rudy. I'm meeting him at store tomorrow (: And ysterday was April Fools Day. Seeing Natalie got pranked by Johan & Farhan was funny and cute. She drank her frappe half-way till she realised that the mischievous boys have secretly put greenpowder and irish creme in her drink. Haiyo. Haha. And surprisingly, she still finds it nice. |
