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PROFILE 
Life's been challenging & love's unpredictable.
But I know, everything happens for a reason.
& That, every ending's a new beginning.
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Saturday, March 28, 2009 @ 1:05 PM
To the Airport! Weekends here finally (: And since today's 28 March, to IRA!, Happy 18th Birthday baby. You're finally legal to live your life to the fullest. May you have joyous days ahead with boyf and loved ones. I miss you, and hopefully, we'll bump in school when term starts next month (: Little Brother's birthday coming this tuesday. Ohmy. I'm close to broke and so, I owe you one dude (: I'm already prepared to meet Johan. He said he's gonna meet me at 1.30 under my blk, but i doubt so he's gonna be on time cause he had trouble finding his shirt. Haha. I don't care what you're wearing today cuase I'm just looking forward to spend quality time with you. We're heading to the Airport for lunch @ Popeye!  EDITED\ By 2, he was already under my blk. I bumped into my dad at the lift lobby. Afterwhich, both of us mrted down to the airport. We then took about half and hour or so to find Popeyes. Haha. Don't ask why. When we finally found it, Johan ordered. We enjoyed eating our lunch while watching Popeye on tv. Thanks Johan for the lunch :D Afterwhich, we decided to head down to the viewing halls to watch planes (: By 7, we then left the airport for Suntec. We were craving for ice cream. Thus, upon reaching Suntec, we bought a small tub of cookie dough ice cream from Carrefour. Since Esplanade was crowded and hectic, we rested our butts at Boat Quay while enjoying the icecream and the breeze. By 10.30, we headed back to my area and slacked at my nearby park. To sum it up, the day went great, and it always does, with Johan. xoxoxo!! And since today's the 31st, Happy 15th Birthday to my brother! :D Grow up, and excel well for your studies. May all your wishes come true, and please, gain some weight! I love you dude :D And also to Nazeera(!), Happy Birthday! Gegerl dah turn olddddddd :P Am meeting Rudy tomorrow to buy materials and do up our store's notice boards. Ohmy.                                   Friday, March 27, 2009 @ 10:57 PM
I'm all yours (L) Hello. Woke up at 9 today and woke Johan up 'cause he had to be in store today. As for me, I rot at home infront of tv and my lappie the whole of today. Everyone's been commenting on how great Radit & Jani is. Thus, I decided to watch it just now and I shed my tears. Haha. I loved the part when Jani would ramble or complain on how hungry she was and call Radit 'bodoh'. And the part when they exhanged 'love you' in the bus. But, it was sad to see on how Radit had to struggle so much to support Jani and make her really happy but unfortunately, had to let her go in the end in order for her to have a better life with her child and family. But also, on a lighter note, their sense of style for fashion and their wayfarer shades and their leather jacks were woah. I likeeee^^ After watching it, I had my bath and I was back on my lappie again. Mum did not really cook today, and thus, my stomach was all the way flat, which's a good thing for me (: I bloghopped and read Rudy's blog. He made me try on the polyvore website. And I did. It's cool^^ And then, Mum decided to karoake. And I sing sing sing till I was hungry. I cooked Maggi. And Johan almost wanted to drop by again my area to bring me food. And I insisted on saying no. After eating, I was back on my lappie and asked Johan to listen to I'm yours by The Script. It's for you to listen, and just so you know, I AM only yours ♥ And mapped my face line by line And some how growing old feels fine I listen close for I'm not smart You wrap your thoughts and works of art And there hanging on the walls of my heart. I may not have the softest touch I may not say the words as such And though I may not look like much I'm yours. And though my edge is maybe rough I never feel I'm quite enough And it may not seem like very much But I'm yours. You healed these scars over time And braced my soul, you loved my mind Your the only angel in my life The day the news came, my best friend died My knees went weak, and you saw me cry Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes. I may not have the softest touch I may not say the words as such And though I may not look like much I'm yours. And though my edge is maybe rough I never feel I'm quite enough And it may not seem like very much But I'm yours. I may not have the softest touch I may not say the words as such And though I don't fit in that much But I'm yours. Thursday, March 26, 2009 @ 4:05 PM
Recovery Meeting Johan later at my area (: We're both off today, but still he has training in the evening. Sinc he has cooked nasi goreng twice for me. Thus, I cooked mee hoon just now, partially for him :D And he's coming later wtih his baby pictures^^ Nomore feeling feverish today (: Four days, I'll not be working. My life will not be hectic for awhile. But I'm anticipating for Earth Hour this coming Saturday :D And also, the store outing to Pulau Ubin on 8th April. And also also, my date with Shida bby when I got my pay. And also also also, our first month (L) Finally, I'm already on the road to recovery, leaving the past unattended. Wednesday, March 25, 2009 @ 2:43 AM
Wonderwall Hello. It's been like a week since I've not written a post. My internet was down and the guy got it repaired on Monday (: I'm at store now, feeling feverish. Thus, I'm not abe to clock in. Sorry to my partners who had to extend their time. Sorry for inconvenience caused. I'm going home soon with johan. I will have my rest while slurping to my mum's porridge. She's been cooking it for like 3days? (: She was worried for me just now, when I was on my way here to store. She said stand behind the yellow line and if i feel giddy or want to 'pengsan', call for help. Mum, you're overreacting but still, you sounded cute through the phone -.- I'm in good terms with her so far since the last tiff we had. After the incident, she talked to me and we talked (: She met Johan twice already cause the other day, she invited him to our house and have lunch :D And yesterday he hid behind the wall, and surprised me at the lift lobby. It's these little things that means most to me. (L) Wednesday, March 18, 2009 @ 11:22 AM
Closure I was crying so badly last night. My head was really spinning that I had to ask Johan to sing me to sleep, so that I could just get the problems off my bloody head. Now, I'm having a little flu and my throa hurts. I guessed I'd cried like one small pail of tears. But, I bet, Mum's not going to notice all that. Cause i'll just give her own space, and I give myself one. I don't know what I'll do if Johan was not by my side. Although he had his own bruises after his training, he still waited up for me to hear out my side of story. I asked him to hit the sheets first but he still waited up for me. By then, it was already like 3.30 int he morning? I called him up and for like the whole of one hour, he listened to my pathetic crying. He asked me to wash off my face and I called him back. He asked me to look in the mirror and smile for him cause that's the smile he fell for. But, I said I can't cause I was too weak to get up. Now, at this point of my time, my eyes are really not in the shape. And I'm crying while I'm typing this post. I watched 'The City', my byfar favourite reality show. But still, I was not cheered up. Why is this happening, IDFK. I'll have work later from 3 to 10. Idk, if I can have myself focus on floor. I don't want to always depend on Johan, who's no doubt, is always there for me. But with that said, I don't know what I'll do without him even. My recent posts have all been sad, mundane and pathetic. At the same time, I've realised that, the most relationship that we can ever have, is the relationhship we have with ourselves. @ 2:30 AM
BLACK SHEEP I thought everything was ok. I thought Mum and I were already ok, in good terms. This morning, she was fine talking to me and what not. I was going to work, and we were still ok by then. Back from work, Johan sent me home and Mum knew about it. She waited for me till I reached home. I appreciate it. I told her about how my day went and such. And then, I was confiding in her about my itches on my legs. So she advised me to put the Mopiko cream. And thus, I said to her, that I'm gonna have my bath first. And things were still ok. Then she started to advise me on what could have cause my itches. So she started saying that I should put my shoes outside and not inside the house. She looked so stressed out, that I said to her don't be too stressed out lah Ibu. And from there, things started crumbling down. She started assuming that I was angry that I had to do this and that when asked. I told her I was not. And she said I was, and from there, my brother tried to make her see thar I was not. And she could not accepted it. And from there, she started to accusing me that I was stressed or tired from work that I had to quit soon. And from there, I started to break down, cause first of all, I just came back form work. Second, I really had to attend to my itches and that they were in pain. Third, for the second time in the wee, in whatever I do/say is wrong in her eyes. Fourthly, noone in this house asked if whether I was ok. Fifth, I had to unwillingly ask Johan to leave me alone for ahwhile by not textiung/calling me. Sixth, I seriously beginning to feel like I'm the black sheep that I had to not stay here anymore. Seventh, I really need my boyfriend and girfriends now. Eight, how am I suppose to sleep when everything's still not ok. Nine, I really feel that I'm such a useless daughter. Finally, I dont know where all this shit will end. Monday, March 16, 2009 @ 1:57 PM
What a day                      Problems aside. Second post for the day (: Yesterday, everything went as planned despite the unpredictable bad weather. I ended work slightly after 3. Went t0 SB-LT collect cheesecakes. Went back to store again and met up with ZEE :D She accompanied me to Watsons to buy gel itchy cream for Nas, my asst store manager. Hah. Get well soon 'gegerl' :D And yes, Johan secretly put sour riproll into my bag before I clocked out. I didn't know until I had done changing. Thank you idiot. Haha. He made me short hot chocolate. Thank you again love (: So after done bidding farewell to everyone, went off with Zee to meet up with Shida bby at basement. Gave a tight warm hug after so long!^^ It's a Sunday, maids' day. AHA. Thus, there was human traffic at the underpass. We managed to walk through all that till we finally reached Tangs. Made our way to the top most level to survey on watches. Shida could not decide yet on whether to get the Adidas watch for her brother. Thus, we decided to have lunch first and look for shoes afterwhich at Leftfoot. But, we met up with Shida's friends first, Farid along with his two friends. After doing so, ate our lunch at Cahaya. We then surveryed the shoes and shops at Fareast. Shida bby bought a top for her 2nd brother. She's a nice generous little sista I tell you. Hah. And as we were making our way out from Far east, a leather brown jacket caught my eye. I'm eye-ing for that, and hopefully it's still there till I get my next pay. HAH. Thus, Shida bby decided to get the adidas watch afterall since her brother had been eye-ing on it also. After purchasing it, we camwhored outside Tangs with my camera and Shida's camera. I guessed we were having too much fun, that I think when we made stupid lame face, that we forget we're in public and people were gonna look. Hahah. That's our bad habit and once we start, we can't stop (: By 7.30, we bid farewell to Farid and his friends and bussed down to the grand cathay for the flea market. There were tons of accesories and Zee had trouble settling on what to buy. She finally bought her two cute wristbands, a ring and her starfish necklace. Shida bought her jvest whilst me, was searching for....ROBOTS! HAHA. And i did found them. A red necklace robot and robot wall clocks. How cute :D ARGH. I was just admiring them and not spend on them cause already on a tight budget. Haha. After all the walking, we were shagged and mrted home! Thanks for the day girls (L) And after sending Shida home till our lift, I bid her farewell and met up with Johan. He insisted on travelling all the way to my place. Thus, I bought for him double cheeseburger (: I had McFlurry. We sat down at the fitness corner at the park nearby. Afterwhich, we stargazed. He talked about the Solar system and talked about everything else till I forgot to take our picture. I remembered about doing so when I reached my doorstep. Idiot. Haha. Yesterday's midnight was memorable for me (: And what happened after that, I don't wish to dwell on it anymore (: And I woke up at noon today. And webcam-ed with Shida bby. You never fail to make me laugh pirate! Pardon our faces lah ye. Heh heh.       And since I'm off today, I'm getting my hands on chores at home. Bye! |