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Life's been challenging & love's unpredictable.
But I know, everything happens for a reason.
& That, every ending's a new beginning.
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009 @ 11:22 AM
Closure I was crying so badly last night. My head was really spinning that I had to ask Johan to sing me to sleep, so that I could just get the problems off my bloody head. Now, I'm having a little flu and my throa hurts. I guessed I'd cried like one small pail of tears. But, I bet, Mum's not going to notice all that. Cause i'll just give her own space, and I give myself one. I don't know what I'll do if Johan was not by my side. Although he had his own bruises after his training, he still waited up for me to hear out my side of story. I asked him to hit the sheets first but he still waited up for me. By then, it was already like 3.30 int he morning? I called him up and for like the whole of one hour, he listened to my pathetic crying. He asked me to wash off my face and I called him back. He asked me to look in the mirror and smile for him cause that's the smile he fell for. But, I said I can't cause I was too weak to get up. Now, at this point of my time, my eyes are really not in the shape. And I'm crying while I'm typing this post. I watched 'The City', my byfar favourite reality show. But still, I was not cheered up. Why is this happening, IDFK. I'll have work later from 3 to 10. Idk, if I can have myself focus on floor. I don't want to always depend on Johan, who's no doubt, is always there for me. But with that said, I don't know what I'll do without him even. My recent posts have all been sad, mundane and pathetic. At the same time, I've realised that, the most relationship that we can ever have, is the relationhship we have with ourselves. |