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Nurashika Razali

Life's been challenging & love's unpredictable. But I know, everything happens for a reason. & That, every ending's a new beginning.

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Thursday, February 5, 2009 @ 11:59 PM
ACKYAWWW


The store had blackforest cake for the b'day celebration on wednesday. I blew out one of the six candles w/o making any wish cause already made one mah. But by then, we were all almost contented cause we had curry chicken with bread, with rice from OCK ^^ Besides enjoying to our hearts' content, we received our tips payment and at the same time, we also learnt that Joanna was going to transfer out to another store due to family commitments. For as long as I know her, she's one great store manager, cracking out lame jokes with on floor or at the backroom. She's like my second mother cause she nags like one. And I am fortunate to have her around cause when she told us the news, she broke down infront of us. That's how much she loved our store and partners. Nevertheless, I wish her all the best working in her new store ^^ Back in store just now, she asked if I'm attached and I said no. Then she laughed and I said, 'Why the random question sia Jo?' Reason being, she wanted me to work on V'day till 1 cause almost all other partners seem to be having their dates/bf/gf. And I said ok (: HAHA. But idk why, since payday is comin' in, I'll just buy something for whoever that comes to my mind when V'day arrives.
Anyho, Brother and mummy made a trip to expo for the Nike sale. He spent 100+bucks which I think it's worth it. And obviously, I have too also :P

And that reason didn't came up to my mind 'cause it was not a big deal for me. And I was not telling everyone even, even the one who told you. I just kept to myself cause I was figuring whether I was really serious or not, or whether it's gonna last. You know, if I'm really pscyhed about something, I would go paranoid and mention his name over and over again. I would really have text you on the day itself if I know I was really weally happy about it. But the fact is, I was still half-hearted. And yeah, it took only matter of days, and it was already over. I see no point in telling anyone cause it didn't go far. It's not that I don't want to tell you about it, I see of no point, cause I'm not excited about it even to tell you. I'm upset that you're upset. And I'm more upset, we are having this issue right now over relationships. And I'm really upset, cause you never even tell me. I was missing you and I was waiting for you to text to meet up or what. So i guess, if we were to not bump into each other, I would be fcuking clueless and you would not tell me. When you said you were gonna text and tell me what, you didn't. I was really concern and I kept on asking you. But you didn't text. Instead, you text regarding other stuffs. And I just felt that you didn't care and that it didn't matter anymore. I was sad. If you were to be more upset about this, tell me, how I would not be more upset about you doing something that you clearly know I don't like. What's all the advices for to each other all this while. You didn't tell me cause I read it from your blog. And it happened infront of my eyes and you already clearly know w/o me telling you, it's gonna hurt me. But I know, I can never ever stop you now. And it doesn't affect me one bit also to not even regard you as a bestfriend anymore, cause you still are. But I'm sorry, if you're upset you should tell me cause you know I won't get mad over it. The fact that you just give up and say 'I'm still your friend, you can always talk to me', it hurts me enough. Cause, the term 'friend', is just making me feel that someone in your life is better than I am right now, whom you can share anything and everything right now. The final truth is, I have not totally yet move on from Shukur. And it's been six months. I can ensure you that there are no more secrets after this. And I promise, when I'll find someone who makes me really happy like he did before, FOR SURE, I'm gonna tell you bby. The first to tell. I love you to death, and I fcuking miss you, and US. I'm a phone call/text away. Just so you know, i have never ever consider you as a friend, cause once a bestfriend, will always be a bestfriend. Ten years is really a long time. And to let you go and not do something about this, kills me. I'll call you up anytime soon bby. ACKY!